As I write this, I am listening to a song from Evita. It's the one where she meets Peron and seduces him. At first I thought of going to the next song then realized it's what I am spending much of my time doing these days, seducing the men around me. So now I am playing the song over and over and listening to the flavor- like moving chocolate around my mouth, tasting every nuance and mood.
Tonight I added some body movements to my role. I need to continue to work on confidence while doing them, truly becoming the high class whore I want to portray. I wish I could just take away every inhibition I have and "chair dance the shit out of that role". That is the point I am hoping to get to. Every rehearsal gets better. As I sat with beer in hand talking to two of my fellow cast members at a bar after rehearsal tonight, I wondered how far our director will let me take it. I have a feeling, it's pretty damn far. Much farther than I am going now. It is like putting on my makeup for the show. My place at the long dressing table is between the actors playing Linda and Bernard. Bernard has a minor in stage makeup so he has been teaching me about color and application. I was working on applying blush and makeup to my eyes and he told me to keep putting it on. It feels good to finally have a reason to go all out and to really layer it on. Stage makeup I am discovering, is really fun. I think the sexuality in this role is a lot like that. I really need to put myself all out there and to deeply revel in it and enjoy it. I am excited to get there. You can bet I'll be working on this tomorrow.
365-09 #19Labels: 365-09 Challenge, Death of a Salesman