I decided to take my head out of a box and my fingers from around the tape dispenser to take a breathe on my blog. My life is surrounded by boxes lately and it will continue to be surrounded by boxes for a while. After 3 1/3 years, I am moving out of my apartment to a one bedroom in another part of town. I want to know what it's like to live on my own without a roommate. I've never had that experience and I think it's high time I did. So tonight I packed my great-grandmother's and grandmother's cookbooks into a box along with tea that has seemed to mate and multiply in the cupboard. I have lost track of how many boxes it's taking to pack up my library, I am probably up to 14 or 15 small to medium sized boxes by now. I don't know how that happens, I think they are mating too.
By the way, if any of you in the area need a octagon shaped table with leaf and four chairs, come on down! I also have a plethora of left-over containers. They are all now "fixed" so they stop growing in number.
I am excited to settle in to where I will be living as strange as that will feel at the same time as grieving leaving here. I have loved this apartment, gotten along extremely well with the managers and I really like my next door neighbors. However, I realize this place, this area of town, has become an ivory tower for me, my place of safety, and it's time to kick myself out of the tower. But this is the first place that has felt like home to me in a very long time. I am hoping the new place will be home too, maybe even more so than this one has since it's all my own.
Lately, life has been so full. Much has fallen to the side of the to-do pile, many things that need to get to get done and aren't done. I am trying to remember to take the time for myself that I need for nourishment and refreshment but between the speaking, working, moving, and a whole host of other projects, I feel like the best I can do right now is put out the fires and occasionally a bit more. Still there is joy in the midst of it all. Yesterday evening I went to see a show in Portland, something I hadn't done for a long time and it felt like me saying, "Oh Sarah, there you are! I've missed you." When I woke up this morning, the dark cloud I have been sleeping under lately was gone. That felt really good. God has also been busy bringing people into my life that needed me at that moment, people who's lives I am humbled to touch. It's nice to know in the midst of it all, God is still shining through me. He likes reminding me through this way that he/she does have purpose in my life. It's nice to see some of that.
I hope to get back to posting here more often, I love writing on this blog. I even have some great pictures to share! But for now, I am headed to bed. I have a full work day tomorrow but it's my favorite subbing job, that will be fun. It's always nice to know what you're doing at work and I can pick this job right up. I hope you are all enjoying May!Labels: God