Friday, February 11, 2011
Live the Question
Ever since a book titled, "Letters to a Young Poet" caught my eye, this quote has been one of my favorites. I hold it close to my heart and have gradually, over the years, been learning the wisdom of it. This has certainly been a time when I stand before beginnings and at times it seems like a wide chasm before my feet. As a single adult, I have heard many times from others how lucky I am to not have a great deal of responsibility, to be able to pick up and move wherever I want. I do admit, it's nice to not have to take into consideration a house or family, but what many who have these responsibilities don't seem to understand or remember, is how frightening a wide world of possibility can be. When you can go in any direction, how do you know which one to take? How do you begin to find your way?
I wish this was a post where I outline the answer, give you the steps on how to find your way. But I have to tell you it is not. I am still "standing before beginnings" myself, not for the first time, but definitely once more. I know what I want, I even know where I might find it, but going from point a to point c can sometimes be far more complicated than going through point b. And sometimes, it is far more simple than we could ever think or hope.
We each wrestle with this question of where is life? Where am I going? What am I supposed to be doing and is this it? For some reason, we see life as this goal we need to achieve, not necessarily the journey we take. We think we have to get somewhere, to reach some kind of marker. And as much as I would love to reach new heights in my career and to do during the day what for years, I have been doing at night, a deeper wisdom urges me to enjoy each day as it comes. Still, I look to the horizon, and shade my eyes so I can see what might be there, just a few steps away.
I do know this: that if you feel called to take new steps, to courageously walk into that horizon, you have merely to put one step in front of another. God gives us strength for today. We can plan for tomorrow, but we need to remember, we are living in today, not tomorrow. And when we do think of tomorrow, we need to take the steps today to get there. God will provide. I don't know how and I don't know where, but I know when. Tomorrow. And maybe someday, if I keep living the question and taking the steps I am given along the way, I will find myself living the answer on some distant day.